i've been about the most grumpiest human being this entier week.
dear God,why did you make me so lame?and so moody?i do not enjoy either.sincerly, Rachelso speaking of God [this is what i wrote about earlier]...
have you noticed how some people think they are so right? everything
they say is the way? and then there are other people who say the
complete opposite of those people, yet everything
they say is the way? and everyone else is wrong? so who is wrong? who is right? which way...
well go with the word. that's what i say.
but sometimes it's kind of inbetween.
somehwere in there, you have to make your own judgements.
get your own beleifs.
i had someone telling me last week that i need to be careful going to
my college [goshen] because they heard a lot of people there twist the
way things truly should be. they also told me i shouldn't be so
accepting. they said, it is good to be open to others, but i shouldn't
be friends with people the way i am. they said i need to condemn them
more. i need to point out their faults. i need to express that they're
basically going to hell, because they are wrong. and i need to realize
that people at my college are going to be telling me things that aren't
true. i must stick to the word to make sure it's true.
and this was coming from a pastor's wife? [no, not mine, quit assuming.]
excuse me, but if that is true... then i should have told her, "then i
should watch out for you, too. Jesus himself walked with prostitutes. i
am sure he walked with homosexuals. he walked with me, and he walked
with you, and he's still walking with us both. i am no better than
anyone else, just like you are no better then anyone else. yes, what
some people do is considered 'wrong' yet that doesn't mean being their
friends is wrong. how will someone ever know the love of god if you
never show them the love of god? and what's the best way to show them?
be their friends. walk with them. act like they're just as special as
everyone else. i am not sorry for having gay friends. i am not sorry
for hanging out with people that other's considered "bad." i am
especially not sorry for hanging out with those who are not christian.
and i do not believe i am wrong. what others say may be considered
wrong to you, yet. but some of what you say is considered wrong to me.
and i
am basing this off the Word."
instead of that, i shook my head up and down and said, "yeah."
i leave august 25 for goshen. this will be my last entry until after then.
and why am i going there again?
that's right, i have no idea.
for a good time i suppose.
furthering my education.
taking some classes.
meeting new people.
honestly, all i want to do is have an endless supply of cash so i can
travel the world, get lost 13 times, meet a gorgeous european man, get
lost 18 more times, and come back a much more well educated,
sophisticated, open, bright and adventurous person than college could
ever make me.
are there any old rich couples out there reading this who would like to fund me on such an adventure?
because right now... the look of college really blows.
and everything else that i could do is also very unappealing.
and basically, the only thing i want to do right now is travel. everywhere.
and meet peole who i will never see again except on some rare, odd coincidence.
and get far far far far oh, did i say FAR away from everyone and everything here,
until i'm ready to deal with everyone and everything here once again.
if i disappear before august 25, you will know what happened.
[someone funded me.]
last week and this week has consisted of a lot of saying goodbye.
i suppose it's sad.
then it's not.
but i do love everyone all the same.
and hopefully we'll meet again.
brooke and i got our hair cut/dyed together.
it was fun.
and i love my short hair.
mony and i hung out at the jones' house in williamsburg.
great fun.
all the girlies had one last night out to mondo's.
heidi. i will miss her most likely the most. she keeps my head on my shoulders.
i don't know what i will do when i'm out of line
and i don't have her there telling me so.
i've been babysitting ben and liza this past week while mary has been
in school and this man came to lost island with us yesterday! very
brave and very nice of him.
bethany, jeremy jones and i had a date to the mall in des moines.
it was rather fun.
we went to the movie
john tucker must die.
i absolutely loved it.
rawr.
and i got this dress. and i guess i'm just happy about it, so here is a photo.
us girlies had our last crazy dress-up night.
i'll miss this one incredibly much too.
i never laugh as much as i do when i'm sure her.
and there we are. the last time together.
waho. i think i'm done.
